He said he could show me the world.
He said that I’m his one and only girl.
He said he’d do right by me and I soon realised that’s something he’d never be.
He has never behaved right.
He never behaved in a way that made me feel safe, he never behaved in a way that made me feel as if he was my comfort place.
I look at him now and think what an awful sight.
Because he hurt me, he claimed me, he abused me, he shamed me.
He tore me into pieces and left me on the daily.
And yeah, I stuck around because my love was so blind.
And yeah, I stuck around constantly thinking I could make those things right.
And yeah, I went back over and over again, glutton for punishment. I guess that’s where it began.
I thought I deserved everything that he did. I was made to feel as though this is what every woman wanted.
Someone who cared so much they’d risk their own freedom someone I thought cared so much and I believed him.
My heart bled everytime he did something wrong. My heart bled everytime, every time it grew strong!
Because although he hurt me, he claimed, he abused me, he shamed me. He also made me.
He made me realise that this world isn’t as pretty as it seems and more often than not you face battles you’d never preconceive. He taught me to be self sufficient and to be fine alone.
Because this world isn’t pretty but it’s where I call home.
Women are strong, so beautiful too. No matter what we go through it doesn’t define you.
No matter the situation think of it as a lesson or a blessing. Please leave toxic relations before it does your head in.